Time Out

Ok, I am usually the last person that admits to being stressed and that's an issue for me. I can usually adapt to most situations pretty well but that doesn't mean it doesn't cause any stress. I try to be optimistic because there are really very few things we can actually control in this life, so going with the flow rather than fighting it seems to be the right thing to do. I do, however, feel like I need a time out or a vacation, or something.

It is very stressful living with people you don't like. I love my sister, but don't always like her. They are 100% different from me and Mike, and expect people to just go along with whatever they say/want instead of having their own opinions/thoughts. More and more, I want to just up and move without waiting out the time period we've given ourselves. They keep trying to throw obstacles at us in regards to us moving out of Vegas. I honestly think they might be jealous that we are working harder than they are to make this move work out in the best way possible as early as possible.

We got married while both of us were unemployed. We'd been planning our wedding for months and couldn't just cancel it because the casino we'd worked for decided to go out of business. It was a challenge but we pulled through it together. I got a job about a month and a half after Westward Ho closed but it took Mike over a year to finally get the job at the Imperial Palace. He worked at other jobs throughout that year, and we wouldn't have started ttc or gotten pg if he hadn't been working, but those jobs didn't work out. The thing about Mike is he's a very loyal, hard-working employee and once he's working somewhere he doesn't plan on leaving, so that year was very hard for both of us especially when we found out Nora was dying.

The problem during that year was that Mike was used to people coming after him offering jobs once he'd applied so he wasn't used to actually having to hunt for a job and because I was working at a new job, I didn't really have much time to help him look either. So, he put out very few applications and had one temp job at the convention center and two jobs during that year that were both duds before he got the job at the IP. Everyone we know were very critical of him during that time because I was supporting us, though we didn't look at it that way. We hated always hearing that he wasn't trying hard enough or looking in the right places. It was worse after I got pg too.

The difference this time is that he's put out more applications in the last 2 weeks than he did probably that entire year, and those are to locations throughout the middle part of the country. We are both really resistant to having to move back with my parents because the more we talk about it with them, the more it seems like we are going to be in their way even if we are paying rent and such. So far we've put out about 2 dozen applications in Colorado, Kansas, Nebraska, Missouri, Illinois, and 1 in Vegas. The hard part is, there really is very little available for him in the area where my family lives, but everywhere else there's jobs out the yingyang.

So, I think I'm taking a time out from the stress and am going to try to become more zen-like. Things are going very well otherwise and I'm anxious to see if my first real week back on the WW without the watchers has been successful. I haven't really exercised much because my neck and shoulder have been bothering me so much in addition to trying to get my work done and help Mike put out applications. Please keep your fingers crossed that we are heading down the right path with this.